recap:
lost the weight i gained from the binge
binged again
lost 2 /3 of the lbs igained back
and then today i ate alot and almost binged.
i need to post more. i need to be more strict. i have the will not to eat cookies so im gonna have to the will to not eat.
i really have to try harder. this isnot working for me. i want to get past 127. i will get past that. i will. i will. tomorrow will be a try hard day. it'll break my shell of starve/binge/starve.
today i almost ate a cookie. i grabbed it, crumbled it, and smelt it. Then i dropped it back into the packaging and shut the drawer. i've been having a hard time these past few days.. the will to lose the weight is diminishing and the self pity is almost overwhelming. beautiful/skinny young girls are everywhere. i fell so out of place at the gym.
i might cut out meat all together. just give that crap up. may leave in fish. def no bread and such, no juices, no energy drinks. I need more fruit and i need to eat more veggies. FUN
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