okay so i figured out that if i dont eat in the morning i won't have any desire to eat throughout the day. i'm going to do that all this weekend and see if i cant get to 126 or lower.
i really am sick of bouncing back and forth from 127 to 130.. it suucks.
i ate so much today.. compared to a moderate amount yesterday (some sausage and peppers at dinner time)... I had a super messy pb&j this morning after i ate two apples.. the guilt made me stop eating. then i made dinner, turkey fried rice, and ate 3 bowls. SHIT what was i thinking.. :'(
i think im not gonna weigh myself to sunday morning and inforce the no eating till dinner rule. when i don't eat till dinner i get fuller faster and my mind is more clearer, i can actually recognize if i'm getting out of control and STOP. wow imagine that!
i'm going to bed on a semi-full tummy. meh.i need something to drink too, my mouth is parched.
My boyfriend is comming over tomorrrow. Pros and cons. pros:i'll be with him <3 we'll be in the pool burning cals. cons: eventually he'll get hungry and i'll have to watch him eat, i'll be in a bikini, he's very skinny.
Goood night
isnt it funny how once we start eating we become monsters, filthy greedy large eyed scoundrels who eat because they havent and want to make up for it?
ReplyDeleteor atleast i do. and once im done, i feel so horrible! wtf lol
madzaq
i hope it works for you! bouncing between numbers, but never going lower than a certain number, is a bitch.
ReplyDeleteyeah once i start i can never stop. it's such a struggle to just keep my self from wondering allll over the kitchen and fridge.
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